Oh, what a life!

Oh, what a life. I seem to lurch from one set of problems to another. Spiritually I am developing well my teachers tell me. My angel card readings continue to be accurate as is my pendulum work. I , so I am told, have a special talent for holding objects and picking up things about their owners from the object. And no, I was not told who owned what. It was a 'blind' test so to speak. I have done some clairvoyance too. This is limited but, so I am told, was accurate. Heavenly Father sure has given me some unusual gifts.

I have been so bad at blogging recently. I mean to but somehow life gets in the way. And so does the depression. I will win through though.

These past few months

It has been a very intense few months. So much has happened. I have come through another bout of depression, a really deep one. But I have come through it. My blog has been neglected as a result but now I am up on my feet again and hope I stay that way.

An more is learnt in circle

I learn more and more as I sit in Circle. And I have become hungry! The more I learn, the more I want to know. There is so much out there that I would love to have the answers to.

After the prayers that start our journey together, we do meditiation. I thought I would never let my mind quieten enough to do this but I am getting so much better . In my last meditation, my darling love came to me and I could see him so clearly, hear his voice and feel his touch. He was so real. It was wonderful to talk to him. He told me he had the answers I was searching for , all of them. He also told me that I needed to find them for myself and that I would be guided, to trust my guide and my angels. Then he smiled and was gone. I miss him so much from my life but know he is safe and happy where he is and, when Heavenly Father wills it, we will be together once more.

There was much talk of the gifts Heavenly Father has given us and their correct use. That we must work on the Spiritual laws. The last one, of unconditional love, will be the hardest to follow. In my next post I shall list the laws and say which ones I am working on , then I can post my successes and failures.

Be Blessed.

Depression is just the pits

I am through the worst now but depression is just the pits. One moment you are in sunshine and next you feel like all the happiness has been sucked out of your life. My friends say it is because I take on everyone else's problems but they don't understand that it is because I choose to. Why should I ignore another persons pain when just a few words of comfort can lighten their load. I think we will never agree on what I believe.

I sat in Circle

I have been invited to join a spiritual development circle and I went on Wednesday. I had sat a few times in Circle as a guest but never to take part. This was quite an experience. After prayers and meditation , we all sat in silence and tried to contact our guides. Several of the group managed to channel their guides through. I didn't believe what happened. I was sitting there thinking yeah, right as the guides came through then I started noticing the face of the woman bringing hers through. Her whole face altered, one side drooped like she had had a stroke, it was weird.

We then talked about the Spiritual laws. They really took my attention. If we all followed them then the world really would be a wonderful place to live. I shall post them separately at some point.

Circle closed with another short meditation and prayer and we all parted feeling at peace.

Circle Time

I have started my Reiki Two and will finish this Sunday. During my first attunement (my Reiki Master always does two because she was given two) I had a wonderful experience. As I was sitting in meditation I saw a pair of really beautiful eyes looking at me. When the attunement was over my Reiki master asked how I felt and I told her of the enormous sense of peace that filled me and also that I saw these eyes. She tells me that my 'third' eye had fully opened and that I would now be able to use my gift of 'knowing' with more consistency and skill. She says that now is the time for me to connect with my guides and to sit in circle so my skills will be developed. I am excited, I am scared, I am honored.

RM is encouraging me to progress with my healing skills as well. I know I have this deep need and desire to help others through my work but I am also cognisant of the fact that having ones help sought is a great privilege. That other people trust me enough to let me into areas of their lives that are sensitive and very private is a great responsibility and not to be taken lightly. I want so much for them to heal.

Is all this the change that is ahead for me? I am so frightened of change. In a way I want it , seek it even but there is that part of me that holds back. I am still pushing my health to do this job that I have always done for so many years. It is something in me, in my soul, that I don't know how I can continue if this area of my life has to belong in the past as it surely must one day. The day gets ever closer. But the other direction is also part of my life and has been for the last six or so years. Do I take the plunge and go for it? Or do I wait and see. Maybe this I will hand over to my angels and see what happens. Angel synchronicity is perhaps the best and the safest path to follow.

Living in the 'Now'

I have been putting a great deal of thought into this idea of the 'now'. We spend so much time worrying about what might happen in the future or fretting over what happened in the past, that we forget to live now. We burden ourselves so unnecessarily when you think about it. Worry is a waste of energy. We can not alter some things in life but we worry about it. It is a very pointless exercise because all that worry and still nothing changes except we have made ourselves even more stressed and possibly ill through doing so. And worrying over the past. What has happened can not be undone yet we still worry about it. We torture ourselves in so many different ways.

How many beautiful sunsets have we missed because our thoughts are distracted ? How many smiles have we only vaguely acknowledged because our minds are busy worrying about what we will cook for dinner tomorrow ? We spend so much time worrying, judging ourselves, letting our imaginations run riot until we get no peace even in sleep. Maybe we should just live in the 'now' and deal with life as it comes. Life is for living , not for worrying every second of it away.

Today is the day you worried about yesterday. Tomorrow becomes today and today becomes the past.

"Yesterday is but today's memory and tomorrow is today's dream."
Kahlil Gibran

Be Blessed

Spirit Says....

Had another meeting at my spiritual group last night and was very fortunate to get a message from Spirit. Again I was told of the addition to the family and that it would be a boy. Very correct. Also that I was going to be taking a long journey and would connect with family. That I am well and truly on the right spiritual path but I must be patient. I am so eager to learn but it won't happen all at once for me. Spirit is also pushing the fact I need to progress with my healing work. The date is set for my Reiki 2 and I continue to work as a counsellor.

I have had some very 'random' things happening lately but then , nothing in Heaven is random 8-). I all of a sudden connected with a medium who had done the reading for me that set me on this path. FB has a lot to answer for. Her name appeared as being a mutual friend but when I checked, this is not so. Heaven is at work.

Be Blessed.

Is 'Knowing' going to be enough?

My mind is exhausted. I have been struggling with so many thoughts rushing through my mind. Which path do I follow? I am beginning preparation for my next Reiki attunement. Definitely this is part of the journey for the spiritual people I come in contact with have all said they can feel the waves of healing coming from me. That they see it in my aura. I am looking forward to Reiki two as I shall then be able to do distance healing for those who want it.

There has been as rush of requests for Angel cards readings, something I always enjoy but now someone has asked something else of me and I am not sure my skills are developed enough for fulfilling their request. I have 'knowing' but it is yet so random or comes through the angel cards but this will be a whole new journey.

May your angels watch over you. Call upon Archangel Michael for protection and for your healing ask the help of Archangel Raphael. And always ask your own Angel for help, nothing delights them more than to smooth your path where they can and to guide you as you learn the lessons of life that have been chosen for you, by you. Be Blessed.

I wish

I wish my life would run smoothly but it never does. It gets interesting though. I went to a meeting of Spiritualists and whilst I was there I was given a message from Spirit. The medium said he asked Spirit who they were and got told to mind his own business cos the message wasn't for him! It had the effect of making everyone in the room laugh which lightened the atmosphere.
The strange thing, the really weird thing, was how accurate the message was. I was told four will become five. (Next day I heard there is a baby coming to the family). Then I was told that the problems I was facing would get worse, they did, and that I was banging my head upside a stone wall. I feel that way a whole lot lately. But things will get better. The medium also told me about my ring and locket. It was strange . It was accurate, I was told other things but I will need to see if they happen in the time frame I was given.

Watch this space. :-)

Busy but confused

Been very busy doing angel card readings and dreams for people. It is either feast or famine. I go for weeks with no requests then bang......the whole world seems to want to know what their angels are telling them or why they dream a particular dream. It keeps me off the streets :-)

So much has been happening in my own life lately too. I never seem to have enough hours in the day. Rush, rush from one crisis to the next right now.

I shall go off and look at other people's blogs. They are all far more interesting than mine. I wonder, any other empaths out there ?

Translation needed

It has been a very busy few weeks and I never seemed to get enough time to blog. So much has been happening, everything changing around me me, faster than I can keep up with. Lots of thoughts to get straight.

I have had so many angel signs these past few weeks, butterflies and fluffy white feathers. They are with me, I know, I just can't work out what the messages are yet.

Angel Gabriella

I was doing my blog surfing when I found the story of little Gabriella. This tiny child grew her angel wings aged 9 months. I picture her now , watching over her family with love and devotion. The brightest star in the sky.

I dance among the daisies
but I know that you are there
Your tiny feet dance with me
with steps as soft as air.

In Memory of Gabriella who is truly dancing among Heaven's daisies

Really Lost the plot today.

I am so low today. I know my angels are out there. Waiting for me to ask them for help. I want help , just can't believe that I don't have the strength to move forward on my own. I should have faith but today it is too low or maybe it is just I am too low to see and believe that what is before me is real.

I sat in Circle

I sat in circle and it was really a most amazing experience. For those who don't know what I mean, it is a spiritual circle. Usually it is people who have the necessary gifts needed to be clairvoyants ( mediums if you prefer) . I was there for them to practice their readings and I was fortunate in receiving a message from my dearest GEF. I miss him so very much and this is month contains the anniversary of his passing. It gave me so much comfort to get the message which awed me with it's accuracy. And for the sceptics reading this, and yes I used to be one myself, he gave me a memory link to something that only he and I knew about. He spoke of the coming changes in my life , the path I was following and the things I dreamed of. All was too accurate to be 'just a lucky guess'. Yes there are charlatans out there who get rich on other peoples grief but there truly are those out there will the real gift which they use in love and not for personal gain. I never use my gifts for anything but the highest good , I seek no personal gain , I just wish to share the gift in the hope it gives healing to those who need it. Nothing in heaven is random , all happens as it should , when it should and for why it should.

May you all be blessed.

Miracle Picture by Thomas Kinkaid

I was emailed this picture last night. It is purported to contain a miracle.

Sharing of Spiritual Gifts

It has been a hard few days and I have felt myself slipping downwards into my 'pit' as a result. Worry about things that are past and can not be altered is a waste of energy and spirit. I had an 'Angel Message' in the form of a quote in Sasa's blog. I do believe there is no such thing as coincidence. Everything is sychronistic as Jung has said.

I attended my Spiritual group meeting as always last night and was uplifted for a time whilst I was there. We discussed many things ; palmistry , dream interpretation and the decoding of messages received. I am up for dream translating next month . It is always something that has drawn me but I am wary of translating dreams for others. I am told that I need to overcome this particular hurdle and to use my gifts. B is forever reminding us that we have been blessed with certain gifts and, as such, are duty bound to share them with others. To exchange the energies as she puts it. It is not that I am not happy to use my skills for others, I am , but it is the fear of peoples' reactions to what we share. People will willingly accept the use of certain gifts but others scare them and so those of us who possess this gifts prefer to hide them away and let them become rusty through lack of use.

Why?

I have been in so much pain today, physical and emotional. Sometimes it would be wonderful if life had a rewind button and you could alter what has happened or followed different paths. I am going to my Spiritual group this evening. I am looking forward to tonight's discussion which I believe will be on Karma. Maybe it will help make my thoughts on previous experiences more ordered.

I used to talk to this girl via email . We communicated back and forth for several years until her emails stopped very abruptly . After close to a year of hearing nothing I had email from her husband to say she had taken her own life and nobody knows why . I know she was ill and had many physical problems but this was the last thing I expected to hear . What makes people feel so desperate they do that?

The Mayan Prophecies

I have just started reading 'The Mayan Prophecies'. I have heard so much about the 2012 predictions for the world but all in tiny little scraps and I want to start putting the jigjaw together. Some of the Mayan predictions have already happened or are happening. Did they really predict future events or is it all a huge hoax ? We have only to wait until 22nd of December 2012 . Then all will be revealed if the predictions are true . Spiritualistic things are coming more and for to the fore in my life. I find that people are more open about Angels and connected matters. Whether this is because my focus is on this that I notice it more or whether there really is a surge in believers I would not like to say. Do you believe in Angels?

I will do an Angel card reading for the first person who comments. Just say if you want a general reading or you have a specific matter for which you would like the Angels to give you insight . Remember I do the readings, I do not interpret them , that is for you to do :-)

Angel Sightings

During World War I, a whole British battalion saw what was an army of Angels over Mons, Belgium. The Angels apparently prevented these soldiers from being massacred and this has become a very well documented event. ( Google the Angel of Mons). Angels seem to be appearing more and more in our lives, more books are written about events where people feel that an Angel must have been with them and shielded them from disaster, or provided help with other situations. I like to believe that they do exist, that they are part of our lives, be they real Angels or just those among us who are 'Earth Angels'

May you all be blessed by Heavenly Father and may His Angels always watch over you.

Oh,what a week. Makes me wonder what will happen next. I think I must have been really wicked in my past life and am paying for it now. Seriously though, it seems if it can go wrong, it will go wrong.
I was looking at other blogs, blog surfing! It was fun and very interesting. I did find one blog written my a woman who was condemning Wicca. I found her thoughts very interesting but I don't think she has actually studied Wicca as several of her observations were, shall we say, a little inaccurate? I am not Wiccan myself , I just enjoy studying things. I do love the principle that Wicca promotes 'An it harm none' . Can you think of anything more gentle? Isn't that how we should be in life ? Cause harm to no one ? It is a wonderful ideal.

I am off to Blog Surf some more!

Angelic Intervention?

I have been trying to decide what to do lately. I have a job I adore but health problems mean I need to either cut down my workload or change my career entirely. This left me trying to choose what I stop doing and what I retain.

Today I found out that a 'friend' had been behind my back and asked for work she knows that I do. I don't feel her approach was fair or ethical but there you are.
I suppose it was one way of making the choice. It still leaves me feeling extremely unhappy but then, why she care? Angelic Intervention?

In The Hands of The Angels

It has been a week of discoveries and changes. I don't take well to change at all. There is something in me that resists it. I will live with a bad situation rather than move to change it. It is not laziness that holds me back but fear of what is ahead. I can see the good that will come from this change and yet I still hold back , I will backtrack as hard and as fast as I can to avoid the change. I should take my own advice and leave it in the the loving hands of The Lord and His Angels. But that takes too much bravery and I am a real wimp.

I have done the same job for years and years. I have loved it so much. Not every moment because it has had it's downside and challenges. But enough to stay with it and know it was a job that gave me so much joy and pleasure. I was able to teach others to do what I could never do myself and to watch them achieve has been so wonderful. But now there must be an end to it. I must pass the baton on to others who will move forward and be even better. But I don't know how to release this and move forward. It is saddening me and bringing me down.

How do you let go of something you love so much? How do you believe that something better is still out there , waiting for you ?

I now have Reiki!

I had my final attunements today and I can now act as a channel for Reiki. It is a most wonderful experience. I used it today and I was amazed that I could not only feel the flow of energy but I could pick up on where it was most needed by the person I was channeling it to.

I think being able to use Reiki on myself is one of my main interests. I want to see if it really does have an impact on various health problems. Is it a case of mind does affect body or is it a case of ' it is just air'. I know that the Reiki treatments I have received have helped me but I am interested to see if I am able to create the same effect on myself.

Reiki

I am working on my Reiki first degree and will finish on Sunday. Reiki. Universal Life-Force energy.
I love the thoughts that accompany the reiki:

Just for today:
Just for today I will not be angry
Just for today I will not worry
Just for today I will show appreciation
Just for today I will work hard (on myself)
Just for today I will be kind to others.

Of course, just for today means every day but it is much easier to try to live up to those ideals when you only have to do it 'Just for today'.

I also like the poem Dr Usui taught his students.

The Wave

One moment stormy

The next it is calm

The wave in the ocean

Is actually

Just like the human exsistance

I love the peace I feel when I have a reiki treatment and I look forward to being able to be a channel for others to experience the same peace. I also have been told that it has the ability to raise the spiritual awareness as we will vibrate at a higher level. That would be so wonderful, a beautiful gift.

Angels and Angel Card Readings.

I read angels cards for people. They always seem to be so insightful, so correct for the person for whom I read them. Whatever the question that is asked of the angels, no matter who it is for, the angels always provide what is needed.

I feel it so humbling that someone from another country can contact me, give me nothing but a name and a question and when I give them the reading they contact me again to tell me that what the message contained related to their situation so exactly and yet it is a situation that I had no knowledge of at all, no way of finding out beforehand. It is truely awe inspiring how Heaven works.

We all have Angels to watch over us but how many of us have actually stopped long enough to invite them into our lives. I picture them sitting around tables, playing cards until one of us suddenly asks them for help. Angels love to help us, they love to make our paths smoother. It doesn't mean that they will make our lives all perfect, with everything in the garden all rosey. No, that is not their purpose. We are here on this earth to learn our lessons and the angels are here to help us. We all have free will so it means that we don't always listen to the voice of our angels as they try and guide us to do what is right. Heaven does give us choices and those choices will lead us down the path revealed once we have chosen. The angels will guide us and help us all they can but we have to listen for they won't and don't force us to do anything against our will. The buck stops firmly with us. They will and do support us , providing us with unconditional love at the same time. Why not invite the angels into your life and see the difference.

All angels have names, from the unusual to the down right homely. My angel is called John. Sit in peace and quiet and ask your angel to come into your life. Ask his/her name and listen intently for you will hear a name either in your head or it will be a name that keeps coming up - in songs, in conversations, books. Speak to your angel using his/her name and always thank them in advance for their help. And help they do, from finding you a parking space where none is apparent to reminding you to take the pie out of the oven before it burns to far more serious matters. Ask them and thank them and enjoy what they will bring to your life.

Reiki

Reiki, the flow of universal energy. I shall be working with my Reiki Master next week. Having received Reiki myself I am so looking forward to having my attunement and then being able to help other people as I have been helped.

Reiki is amazing. You don't even have to believe it can work for it to work. The sense of calmness it gives is wonderful. My first experience left me feeling very depressed. Reiki works from the inside out, it heals inwardly and this can be very disconcerting. It is a bit like putting a whole bunch of fruit in a blender then whizzing it around, everything is all mixed and muddled, then you strain the bits out.

My second session was totally different, I was aware of such peace and tranquility. I felt like my depression was just lifting out of my head and floating away.Every time the practitioner touched me, the heat from her hands was intense, almost burning when I touched her hands in curiosity, I found they were icy cold.

My third session gave me surprise and delight for my long locked away psychic abilities started opening up and I was aware of things that I should not have known about. My spiritual journey moves on.

Do you believe in Reincarnation?

Do you believe in reincarnation? As I have been exploring these things I have been told several times that I am an 'old soul' , that I have 'been here before' . It idea behind this thinking is very similar to the Buddhist ideas that we relive our lives over and over until we get things right. Another train of thought says that we are all in spirit in heaven and we choose lessons that we would like to learn in life. These choices are noted down in a book of records kept by the Archangel Michael. We are then born and move through life facing situations that will help us learn our chosen lessons and to improve on them. If we fail then after our earthly death, we are then 'reborn' as a baby and continue to have the needed lessons until we finally achieve what it is that we had chosen to learn.



Following this thinking, then it would be safe to assume that all that happens in our lives is not random but is an arranged process by which we hope to learn our lessons. Those who have absolute belief in these ideas also think that we chose to face these happenings and planned and agreed to them before birth. It is an interesting concept although I am not sure that people would really agree in advance to face some events of life that are all to often to horrific to contemplate.

Not sure why I thought a blog would be good. Maybe because I think it might help all these random thoughts from whirling around my head.

I am very interested in the spiritual pathway and have been working on developing my special skills. I am an Empath and I read Angel cards. I often seem prompted to call people only to find that they had been thinking about contacting me!

I believe in Angels, some of them walk this earth. I call them friends.