How do you explain this without sounding weird?

OK, some strange things have been happening around here. I am thinking my apartment is haunted. Seriously!

Joe and I are really wondering how we explain some of our beliefs to people. It can be so hard to get people to understand what we believe in. They like to throw verbal stones at us. Holding different views isn't allowed and it looks like it has cost Joe a friend. He's real sad about it but says he had to be honest. Joe has always supported his friend's right to hold his religion, LDS, but the friend can't reciprocate this for Joe.

Really Lost the Plot

I am having one of those times in my life where I don't know exactly where I am heading, nor even why.  When Joe tells me I have lost the plot, he isn't kidding. I go up and down like a child's yo yo.  I believe I know and understand my path in life but why do other people, who are only on the fringes of my life, think they know better.  Well meaning of them, I am sure, but they don't walk the same pathways, they don't wear the same shoes. 


See, I have contradicted myself.  In one sentence I say I am lost, in another I know where I am heading.  I lost the plot :-). Back to the drawing board of life.

Choices

It has been a long time since I was here and I am sorry for that. Life just gets in the way.

I have been going up and down with ill health and depression then all the other trash that has been happening in my life. I am often surprized I am still here, still battling onward.

Spiritually, it has been an interesting journey. I think I am accepting more and more that I am following a certain pathway and making progress with it,

I am still facing the change of direction, employmentwise and this is causing me much heartache as it is a job I love so much and one I was born to do. I can not see my life without this work as part of my life. I am trying to face it but very unsuccessfully so far. I am talking with a psychologist but I find myself resenting the intrusion into my life. The questions about things I don't feel are relevant to the problem. And why do they think dragging up the past is going to somehow miraculously solve the problems. The problem is that ill health and pain are making my job increasingly difficult but I still need to work, still need to make a living. I just can't give it up and walk away from it. And I don't want to leave a job I adore to do a job I will hate and to do that job until I retire. What joy is there in that? It would only make my life worse.

I just wish I could find a doctor who can fix my body instead of passing me from one specialist to another. I have seen so many 'experts' yet nothing has improved and I am just made to feel that I should just accept it. Why? It isn't as if it is something there is no cure for.

Maybe those questions will remain unanswered, the problem unresolved.

Lost Time

I have lost so much time lately. Needing to come here and yet not able to be here and blog. So much happening in my life. It is so hard to be a 'Sensitive'. I prefer that term rather than medium. It bothers people to think you connect to the dead but then I don't believe they are dead. When our loved ones die, they pass into spirit, they live on. After all, didn't Heavenly father tell us life was eternal? But how can lightening the burden of the bereaved be so bad when we can give them proof their loved ones are still with them, still watching over them?

So much has been happening, some good, some not so good. It feels like I have been swimming against the tide and not always very successfully. I shall write more about that at a later time, now is not the right moment.

This is a beautiful country. I sit and watch the ocean nearly every day and it is so awesome to watch this creation, Mother earth. She needs to be protected and nurtured. I feel we are slowly destroying her beauty with our careless ways.

Naughty Girl :-)

Time keeps getting away from me and I forget to come here to blog.

Been a bit of a rough road of late with the depression and health problems knocking at my door. Spiritually my development has cruised along steadily and I have been doing more and more Angel Card reading s for people from several countries. Their feedback has been very encouraging.

I Promise ( sorry for the pun) to do better in the future.

So much happening

So much has been happening to me that to come here to post was completely beyond me. I ended up feeling very low, the depression really just beat me down but know I am getting well again, able to fight back. I still am facing the health problems that are slowly robbing me of my ability to my job, the one I love so much. Maybe something new will come for me. I shall ask the Divine and wait to see what doors will open for me.

Spiritually I am moving forward at a good pace. I still do angel card readings for those who ask and I am always delighted when people tell me how accurate they prove to be. Evidence that the Divine is guiding me. I still work with Spirit but not sure that , as a 'Sensitive', I prefer that term to that of medium, I want to go on platform. Every reading I have tells me it is what I am meant to do but I still feel my path lies elsewhere. Maybe spirit is right and I am supposed to use my gifts that way but for me the healing draws me more.